Saturday, February 10, 2007

underexposed

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druken cycle epiphany

Hurtling down the highway, the wind is in my hair, I'm buzzed, there is almost no traffic at all, the chill of the night wrapped around me like a tight cocoon. The music in my ears is the last thing that completes this whole feeling of ecstacy and just when you think you're doing fine, you hear the pop, a clanking. so i reluctantly stop the cycle and the chain's come off.....

Strong metaphor for life in general, i mean think about it, one minute life is fine you're excited, you're happy... next minute, there are rabid dogs chasing you and the chains come off the cycle...

So i'm kneeling there on a state highway, in the middle of the night on a decent enough high thanks to the quality products provided by Mr. Mallya... Anyways I just guess when life is going that good the chain coming off in a way just acts as one those checks so that you don'e get too carried away. Stop, Look and Listen......

So anyways i'm at one of those points right now... College couldn't get worse, (incident that we're not mentioning nowadays, makin jokes but not too many)*, now things have changed but cmon its still in my head right.... So what do you do..... New beginning, wipe the slate clean.... So I'm going to tell you what i'm grateful about....

I'm intelligent, funny and quite adventurous, wild. I have atleast three great friends Aditi, Hemant, Sid.... and an amazingly cool family.... and most importantly I have the potential of making it...

Where do i want to make it? What do i want in life?

Short term: Freelance work so i can make enough money for all these trips i have planned, and finish a portfolio by February so I get a great firm because i know once i'm in ill blow them away.... Don't i always... that's another thing i'm grateful for... give me enough time and if there is something that requires me to apply my mind i'll get there sooner or later... so long term.. what do i want five years after i pass out... I want to be working for a firm abroad and live the sitcom life... Wish you could take your friends wherever, like they're some appliance or something... because i can't do this all on my own, i'm no superman..... i need my support system...

Anyways, I know what I want, no wait, I can think about what i want, don't know it, don't feel it yet..... mental note... work on that...

So the chain is back on...the ear phones go back and life is back on track well as much on track as the next guy.... and then you come to the turn for vimannagar.... left or straight... into the unknown? another day...another story... another metaphor.... Temet Nosce...

*if you completely dont know... well..lets just say.. it's soap opera worthy and slightly traumatic for me and everyone else involved as well....

Sunday, February 4, 2007

Middle of the night,
Candles' burning low,
Spirits' in the glass,
Spirit's in me,
Spirits are low,
Spirit is high,
Feeling is the problem,
Numb would be fun,
Tolerable anyways,
Emotion, Love, Betrayal,
Thinking you know,
thinking you feel,
thinking,thinking,thinking,
Can't be one of the herd,
stand outside, isolated,
by thought, by choice,
Candle burns out,
Step into the cold night,
Wandering aimless, confused, broken,
The streets are dead,
My soul comes alive,
Solitude and a good tune,
its in my head,
The pain is real,
The joy was in my head,
Life was a farce,
Too weak to break away,
Weak, hurt, broken
Weak,hurt,broken
Need to stay away....

Friday, February 2, 2007

here goes nothing - II

second time i'm attempting this.... here's a piece i have down to memory...

Several conversations end abrubtly,
Silences deafen,
Stuck on gaya's melancholy,
With my quiet brethren...